Starting Slow - My Journey to #BeautifulConfidence - Sammy Makes Six

Starting Slow - My Journey to #BeautifulConfidence

This is part of sponsored campaign with Bliss, all opinions are my own.

Last year I made a resolution to not just take better care of myself but to be better to myself. At this point I am no longer thinking about getting to the weight or shape that I was in before I had Sammy. I was never super thin, always a size 10-12 and it wasn't until after I had Sammy, that I really gained weight. It's seriously sad to think that I lost all the baby weight after having her and then with no baby as an excuse, I gained 35 pounds all on my own. One of the most shocking moments was one day when I looked in the mirror and saw cellulite on the back of my thighs! Never in all my life had I had cellulite on any part of my body, even my boyfriend was surprised to see this terrible new development on my legs. It wasn't my best moment that's for sure.

There's been so many factors that have led me to this weight gain. 

congestive heart failure: during my pregnancy I developed heart disease and instead of letting that motivate me to get in better shape for my heart, I wallowed in pity and stopped walking or trying to stay in shape. I would remember the doctor telling me how I would not live to as long as I would have had I not gotten this disease, and I guess I got so freaked out by the thought of not being around for my kids, that I kind of stopped living.

I started working at home: this is a big one for a lot of us who work at home. Getting to work from the comfort of your house has so many perks. But it also has major draw backs, one of them being the lack of mobility. If I don't make a conscious effort to get up and move around, I can literally sit at my desk all day and never move. 

skipping meals: I've never been a big breakfast person, always really hating the idea of a big breakfast. This has been an issue for me all my life, but in my younger years my metabolism was still working. At this age and under these circumstances, skipping meals is like grinding my metabolism to a complete halt.

my diet: while I am a very small portion eater, I only eat once or twice a day and it's not usually something healthy. I'm always so busy that if I am out, I will suggest a quick burger or sandwich just so that I don't have to worry about cooking or spending more than a few minutes eating. I am not one of those people that relishes a meal, sitting down to enjoy it slowly and luxuriously. A foodie I am not.

motivation: heck I don't know why I was lacking motivation. You would think that having these beautiful, young and hip daughters would motivate me more than anything to want to look as good as they do. I feel really sorry for my boyfriend who had to take me at my frumpiest, and still he managed to love me all the while. How and why I have no idea because I don't think I would have done the same thing if he had been the one to go frumpy on me.

Making changes.

You will not see me making any super extreme changes. It has taken me seven years to get to this point and I don't expect to get back to where I was in a hurry. Instead I am making small but meaningful changes to my every day life. These changes are subtle enough that the rebel in me can follow them without wanting to break free and run for the nearest cheeseburger. 

I am making changes to the amount of time I spend working online, making sure to take a break outdoors even on my busiest days. I am making sure to get three meals in, extra water and whenever possible a snack. I don't think I can manage the 6 small meals that so many suggest, but I am incorporating better choices into my meals.

For motivation I am doing some shopping for myself. Last week was the first time in a long time that I did some actual clothes shopping. I found a few items that look really good on me, including the perfect pair of jeans. Knowing that I have cute clothes to wear really helps in making me want to stick to my changes. When summer arrives, I want to wear sleeve less tops and shorts with sandals and I want to enjoy summer. It's really hard to enjoy summer when you are cooped up in tight pants and heavy tops. To help aide with the appearance of cellulite, I am trying out the FatGirlSlim Lean Machine. This little machine massages your skin to help contour and smooth out those bumpy pockets of cellulite. By using this daily for 6 minutes, I should have much better looking thighs by the time summer arrives.

Spring is in full bloom now and that means summer is peeking around the corner. I want to be able to face it with confidence, I really do. Slowly but will happen.